Abby thinks you’re..
..A star. I can see you shining up there, but it’ll be just like that forever. I won’t be able to reach you. You are so close and yet so far.
Why can’t I just do it? I didn’t make it. On all the efforts i’ve exerted yesterday, i didn’t make it. i keep asking myself why, somehow..just to try to know but no. i didn’t. and i still don’t.
Why does it had to be not me? Why is it them? the ones i didn’t want to be it the most. They sounds really happy but i don’t. And i hate it. I feel insicure.
I can’t stop crying whenever I think about it. I guess i won’t be able to attend the subject on Monday. I’ll try not to. I had already enough and I won’t be able to withstand the pressure anymore. I’ll explode. and i’ll definitely shame myself in front of him. Darn it.
:D