Abby fleets away.
I feel sad… actually, that’s not the right word… I don’t know it’s just that I feel so alone and unloved like no one really cares about me like they just “care” for their own benefits… well, people are like that, people are users… one way or another we end up using other people for our own good… now don’t tell me this is not true, coz it is… people use other people in order to survive, that’s human nature I think… but that’s not the point, the point is I feel alone and unloved… and this has nothing to do with my ‘him’ okay? actually right now, I feel that he’s the only who cares about me and no one else does anymore… like I dunno I feel everyone dislikes me, and that I don’t have any friends, I just have “fans” or acquaintances… sometimes these sadness attacks I get at least once in 3 or 5 months just makes me crazy, a while ago I felt so alone and sad to the point that I almost cried… well, I easily cry but not for these kind of reasons, I usually bring out my pride saying to myself I don’t need them or I’m just different and better than them that’s why they don’t get me but a while ago I felt weak and unlikable … but I didn’t cry… I ended up eating bacon and eggs, the same thing I had for lunch… I dunno maybe I’m just bored because I lost my book somewhere in the house and I have nothing better to do… oh well.
or maybe… I’m pushing people away…
